LYJ21: Upsize +50cents

In reference to my previous post

I have no particular references to a particular
'you' with all the statements I made

The purpose of the previous post is
to relieve some emotions
Its like this bar gauge
MIN --------------------- MAX
Its RED till the MAX
You cant just absorb everything until
you suffer depression and watever illness
I find it a way to express my
thoughts and views and to just
...voice it out

I think that time I go to my 'sanctuary'
I felt this sense of inner peace
Of recognition of my current time
Of my present existence
I look out at the reservoir
I see the green lush grass
I see the clear blue sky
I see my Dad
Everything that Dad is saying
makes sense to me
I walk along
Helmet in hand
Troubles and deadlines seemed inconsequential
Its whereby the inner demonic
temper of my gets tamed like a lion
I notice myself in the surrounding
I see my love
Its like 'enlightenment'
And I think its an awesome feeling
So...'indescribale' by words or by feelings
And I'm a person who use feelings as a very
strong gauge of making decisions
I cross my arms left over right
I use my heart more than my head
But I balance out everything at the end

I never shoot off my mouth without thinking
You think I shoot vulgarities like machine gun
You think of the vulgarities you know
and which one you truly know what you
are scolding?

I always know the consequences of the thing I do

Cai Ying is asking me
CY: 'Why don I feel that your blog doesnt
give me the impression of your zhen ren 真人?'
I replied
YJ: 'I think my blog relfects me more of my true self ba'
CY: 'You give me the impression you got too much
friends and you treat them all as hi-bye friends'
YJ: 'No la. I got rank my friends de'
CY: 'You mean like 1 2 3 ar?'
YJ: 'No la. Like you guys the poly ppl, Joanne Hui Jeen
Jesslyn Jia Yong Wei Ying Eric they all
You guys are like my closest friends'
CY: ' Icic'

Talking to Edmund now
Haha.
Brother, I dono why
But sometimes, at the end of the day
only brothers stick to the end
FTW *pumps fist
Yea. Good guy don last
They finish last too
Bad guys get all the privileges
Tats something that is portray in movies too
I knew it so long ago really
But...I'm a bad guy trying to be good
But the good guys go through shit and hell
Just to save the world in the end...

Edmund asked me
What makes ur previous post so negative
I just say some things need to be typed out ba
Just expressing myself through a media

Leaders are not born overnight
Leadership is not something that can be trained
Its something that is within you
Ppl have it, don't need to necessary flaunt it
Ppl don have it, ppl try to show it off
Ppl have it, and is force to lead
I don dare say I lead well
But I dare say I'm a leader
Dont talk bout academic terms
Its not impt in EQ development

Like what I mentioned previously
I don wanna lead all the time
Its taxing and draining
You can lead me for whatever style you have
But just get me safe and sound to your
preferred destination
Don leave me hanging there
Its a terrible feeling

Edmund also asked
'Lim, you organise class gathering so long
Then not tired and stuff meh?'
I replied
'I guess I see diff cliques meeting diff cliques
is a good feeling for me ba
Its a success for me to have get ppl down to
see each other'
Taxing part is the gathering attendance
Making sure they are present

Even if they are not seeing me
Even they got nth to say to me
I don mind
I realise that I'm the only person
who go from cliques to cliques
making sure everyone is enjoying themselves
Keeping my connections with them
Even if my conversations is skin-deep
talking with no personal emotion
Its enough to just crack some lousy jokes for
ppl to laugh at
But at the end of the day
If I'm the bad fat joke and you laugh at me
I'm alright
But don take me for the fat piece of joke
when I 100% serious with you

I know that all of us are goin through
a transition phase
Girls are goin Uni
Guys are in Army
We poly ppl are studying like dogs
Going to go Army soon also

Edmund say
'Aiya, your outings will get lesser and lesser'
YJ: 'Haha. I know of cuz'
Mund: 'Then at that point of time wont keep in contact'
YJ: 'Soon ba...soon ba..'

Until the pt whereby I see the signs
are there for me IN-THE-FACE
LYJ rarely gives up
But he knows the transition phase is occuring
Everything is gonna be unpredictable
The promises there are gonna be broken
But not so soon ba...
=D

Talking about Army
Adrian says something interesting
Asat: 'Would you wanna be in the same
company with ppl you know?'
YJ: 'Nah. Don want would be better'
Asat: 'Haha. Its a good chance for us to
change our face and lead a new life again
Be a different Asat or YJ right?'
YJ: 'Haha....'
Yeah of cuz Bro

My life is like basketball
Xiao Hong says 'YJ is a person
who always go all out for the game'
Ming Kian says 'I nv see him give up before'
Its not about winning
Winning is not the every thing
And its definitely not the ONLY THING
(ernie tan thats for you)
I don guaranteee me and you on the
same team we will win
But I WILL try my best, nth lesser to go all out to win

Dad says in life if you got try your
best then why be guilty, be ashamed of your
results? Studies this time not good,
test no good, exam no good, can always try
again, so no worries

I take this as my principle in life
'Try my best so that I can live up to myself'
I always say this phase in Chinese
"对得起天地良心就好了"

Band of brothers
I gonna develop this 8R and hang on
in my room on the wall

If 2 consecutives posts are too emoish

I apologise to the ppl out there
But the previous post just had ideas floating
out of my mind as I type
Next post would be on Sentosa outing!!!
=DDDD
It would be outgoing, hip, and everything
much better than my thoughts