Took my time in riding there
On the way I realised something on the road
I am losing my concentration on the road
I cant seem to be able to grasp the surroundings vehicles
On the other hand, I'm more interested in the greenery
The sights and sounds along the road
Then my mind is not on the road 50% of the time
The other 50% is spent thinking about the route,
where I'm heading to, what I'm gonna do there
how I'm going home, at what time, whats my plans for
later on, whats my next week gonna be like and etc
Totally so not myself....
I reached Ngee Ann and parked the bike
Shaked my head and it felt so heavy with the full-faced helmet on
Totally disappointed at my lack of awareness
=/
Anywho, the good thing is that I went through
a record-breaking 4 hrs discussion?
Touched on plenty of issues
But I'm just glad Soon Teck said some things to clear the air
Very relieved and glad indeed
=)
Some other things I found out this week
That next week is gonna be hell of a week
Presentation is coming up and I think this presentation
actually means a lot to me
And the ESRC Dragonboat competition is next Sat too!
Plus of cuz deadline for NTU application document stuff
And other other others that I should do
Like clearing my dirtied table after Arts-&-Crafts by me
And some other not-so-artisitic drawing left behind by others
=.=
Words cant really describe my thoughts on this
I cant seem to express my emotions out
But its etched all over my body language
Some ppl feel guilty over some things
But you know whats beyond the level of guiltiness?
What's 1 level higher?
I say its to feel ashamed
Whats 1 level higher than feeling ashamed?
I think its just
C-R-I-T-C-A-L-L-Y ASHAMED
Sometimes you cannt expect too much
期望越高
失望越多
Everytime I give I dont expect returns
But some courtesy would just fine
Its all accumulative you see?
1 thing leads to another
If cannt click then I guess we should go our separate ways....
Done with giving in...
I ought to do something for myself too
Why be so hard on myself?
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