Family Tragedy

Tragedy

1. a lamentable, dreadful, or fatal event or affair; calamity; disaster: the tragedy of war

Family

1. parents and their children, considered as a group, whether dwelling together or not.

2. any group of persons closely related by blood, as parents, children, uncles, aunts, and cousins: to marry into a socially prominent family.

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Life's definitely all about ups and downs
Everyone definitely has their highs and lows
But like the Chinese saying goes
家家有本难念的经
I cant compare myself to ppl who comes from
single parent home, parents who are financially unstable,
body defects or even family abuse
But I myself is also having difficulties

I myself have learnt to do housework
I commit to a invisible schedule
I do housework to offload my parents burden
and to upkeep the cleanliness
I do it during the exams, during the weekdays,
during the weekends, during anytime I am forced to too

I virus checked my house of 4 computers
I backed up the files on my hard disk
I defrag the computers
I keep the Internet working
I buy the Modem + Router
I go service the parts
I go call up Singtel/Starhub for updates, enquiries
I call up Royston and friends for IT help
I borrowed this and that here and there

I take care of my Mom, Dad, and Bro when they are sick
I helped to fetch the kid from primary school
I teach her work when I have exams the next day
I help my bro with his school work
I read the mails and letters and billings
I wash the dishings
I cook the dishes
I prepare the dishes
I cleaned up for everyone
I buy food for everyone

I worked around with a limp
I had to beg for a full ankle guard
I had to go see the sinseh by myself while
Bro has Dad and Mom bring him there
I take taxi home and kana fucked by the uncle
I hoped around and tried to teach tuition
I earned 250 and gave 150 to pay for the SCV, allowances,
and etc to give Mom
I take the remaining 50 and save for my friends bday
I take the remaining 50 and save it for rainy days
But the rainy days come more than the sunny days

I keep the clothes when raining
I take them out when sunny
I take them in when raining again
I prepare my basketball shoes, drinking water, keys,
handphones, and deep-heat cream
I take out towels and extra shirt
I go buy extra drinks

I lent out tutorials
I do up lecture notes
I save my reports and reluctantly send to friends
who sometimes nv say thank you
I see my work on others
I am ok with that
Cuz my friends worth a lot a lot to me

I go for NPCC in XMS
I do up planning for end of year camps
For training camps
I conduct extra training sessions on my own
I do the contacting for others
I get flamed by some parents
I get hated by cadets
But its ok
I like my job scope
I love my Unit

I go down Comex
Kana cheated by telephone operator
Rushed there
Got scolding through the phone

I helped my Mom settle my Bro stuff
I help to relieve her pain when she is in pain
I massage her
I help to calm her down when she have headaches
I help her look and switch on drama channels
But she still scold me over Bro
Its ok
I endure


Its ok
I know the world
I know its bad
I know I need to survive
In the harsh reality
That comprises of the harsh education system
and the harsh working world
I know people are selfish
I know the phrase 'Every man for himself'
I know I cannt expect people to help me
But I still help ppl a lot
I know ppl don appreciate it
Even if they do, they don't show
Makes me sad
I know i know i know
I know a fuck you may say?

Yup. I dont

My predictions mostly correct
I can forsee the future happenings
I forsee family tragedies
I forsee funerals
Even though I don want it
I see myself
Burning the papers
Touching the wooden table beside me
I end off this post

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I look out of my window
The cool night breeze blowing in my face
Suddenly...
I touch the window grills
Look at the key lock
And I pictured myself jumping out and landing
down on the ground below....