It sucks to have unsupportive parents at times
Dont you think so?
It sucks when after 1 year and 9 months
Suddenly you think the sun is all shining brightlyThe slope up the mountain is nearly conquered
The grass smells and almost taste freshier on the other sideSo green so lush
Everything was coming to a fairytale ending and what notThen you are hit by a suckerpunch so hard
You totally didnt know what hit you
It's like a rabbit caught in between the headlights
Yes that's how I feel
3 more weeks to ORD
But I'm not like in any celebration mood or what not
It hurts to be feeling this way
And I think the family plays a big part in this
Ever since BMT has finished
I think the support for my NS from the family has waned tremendously
I didnt need my mom to carry my fieldpack for me definitely
And definitely I didnt bring muddy boots home
Last but not least
I washed my own clothes too
So its damn sian when you booked out every Fri
Come home and just have this damn sian feeling again
When the parents dont even talk to you or what
Not even a care of concern on how's things in camp or what
And yes
Matters in camp actually do affect me
Even throughout the week, and on off and leave days
Its a 24/7 call-of-duty kinda thing
When the men call you early in the morning
Like 6-7am to tell you that they are sick or what
What happen the details
Which hospital what operation
Informed all the relevant personnel already
So on and so forth
And people still can say Sergeants like us got nothing to do
And they stand in awe of all the Officers
Not knowing that not everyone who goes to OCS
Or Command School for that matters
Is someone who is of deserving calibre
Never seen Officers who are lousy?
Only seen them in their Number #1 at the commissioning parade?
Check-ed
I can only say my NS life is a positive experience
Shows me 101 different types of people
Shows me office politics over and over again
And no I dont want to be involve in all those bullshit
And my NS teaches me to be stronger
To be more committed and discipline
To carry on training
To love running
To commit myself to a healthy lifestyle
To be more independent as well
For a guy who weighs nearly 10kg more before enlistment
To my current weight which I maintain
Due to my own regime and trainings
I think it's an accomplishment
To cut down 4mins of running time to get IPPT gold
Hell I think I can walk through fire and back again
How many NSF are marksmen, IPPT gold, and top % grads?
Even if its not just the physical aspects
How many ppl can boast your Platoon
Remember, Platoon, can have no zero-fighter and all IPPT passes?
Inculcating a disciplined mentality and training a capable bunch of men
Who came from different background
Different families, different education level and what not
It's not easy you know?
Taking time out to prepare for a scholarship interview in university
During NS time
Hell that's hard
Scoring the scholarship?
I done that too
Oh wait, there's no congratulations from the family
Nobody asked how did the interview went
Nobody knew I walked through the bloody 12pm sun
Got soaked from the top of my business shirt
To my underwear
And yet managed to present something presentable to the panel
All I got was.......
"Why never take the clothes out when you come home?"
"Why never clean the house?"
"Why never sweep/mop the floor?"
Yup, they never ask anything about the scholarship
They dont know that subsidised tuition fee after tuition grant is fully covered
They dont know there is a $3.6k living allowance per year
And last but not least, they dont know how much time I spend to prepare for it
Of course, rushing home from NTU to get the Mio TV guy to fix my cable
That was included as well
They say NSF's weekends are damn precious
Who wanna disagree?
Who spends their free time tutoring their cousin?
Who apparently thinks that the tutor is not good
And doesnt show any interest, and yes, I have to see other ppl faces for that
Time is precious
Thus countless hours spend travelling on public transport
Is very time-consuming
All I want to have
Is just a mode of transport
A motorbike to travel
And the reply I got
"I dono how to ride a bike?!"
Oh wait, last I forget, I got 4 different license on my license card
Add to 2 more military license?
I have 6
I think only fighter planes I cant fly it
But hey, who knows I wont ace the flying exam?
Japan radiation disaster
No concern about my plans
Only concerns on whether will get back the money or not
Oh wait, the money is my own money as well
And hey, no one in the family asked how was the India trip
Did they?
Yup, India was fantastic for me
And all I could relate to was the photos that I liked
And posting them here for me to refresh my memories
Amazing totally
Travelling plans aside
Interest-wise
Buying the DSLR
Took plenty of convincing
And hey, once again, never use any single cent of other ppl
No, no one wants to see the photos
Buying a laptop for my uni?
Tell me go fix the old one from poly?
Which I believe is the last survivor among the 4 of us who bought the same model
And I confidently say that mine runs the fastest
Seriously?
Using back the old one for uni?
Hey, this year I can place 6 candles on its birthday cake you know?
Having interest is tough hur?
Telling them I wanna learn Muay Thai
Ha, being brushed off
Location is far
Will get injuries
No time
Etc etc
Ok, so be it
I will just go ahead
From primary school till now
And onwards to university
I have not given anyone anything to worry about
More likely than not, only my ferocious temper
Other than that
Does anyone have to worry about me not getting a place in
a secondary school, a junior college (been there done that)
Polytechnic?
Chose the route and managed to advance to uni
Oh, with the 2nd best results in the whole course
Scholarship for further studies?
Secured
Job interviews after ORD?
Done that
Ready to start work right after the week of my ORD
Seeing ppl in camp who cant even have their meals without
worrying about whether can they have a place to study next time
Or worrying about huge amount of school fees in SIM or private institutes
Hey, thats life
And you cant run away from that
And yes I dont have that problem
I'm glad for that
Because I can only say
I achieved with my own pair of hands
That worked doubly hard
With a body that refuses to succumb to illness and diseases
And a mental frame so strong that little things can break
I think I deserve a pat on my own shoulders
For that, I'm gonna do that to myself
And yes, I'm still gonna be a little boy and ask for the motorbike
I will make my own travel plans to Cambodia
I will go all these so-called 3rd World places
Just to fulfill my personal ambitions of visiting all the must-see attractions
I'm gonna do all that before I die
I'm still gonna carry on my Muay Thai lessons
After being kicked in the chest for the first lesson
Yes I will still go ahead
And I still go ahead to purchase my new laptop
After selling off my old one for $200
Yup, I will be more independent
I will learn why some friends my age are buying houses already
And I can see where they're coming from
And yes, I will be more disciplined and committed
To my own causes and interest
So that, I know, the blue-print for the next 5 years is still intact
I'm still gonna keep to it
Because if before NS the plans were like this
Soon-to-finish NS, the plans are playing out the way they are
Hell, if it is not broken, why fix it?
Oh it may sound like a monthly rant
Like your monthly periods
Or some sort of boasting forum
But hey, what do you know?
《原来。心酸。比。心痛。难受。。。》
You totally didnt know what hit you
It's like a rabbit caught in between the headlights
Yes that's how I feel
3 more weeks to ORD
But I'm not like in any celebration mood or what not
It hurts to be feeling this way
And I think the family plays a big part in this
Ever since BMT has finished
I think the support for my NS from the family has waned tremendously
I didnt need my mom to carry my fieldpack for me definitely
And definitely I didnt bring muddy boots home
Last but not least
I washed my own clothes too
So its damn sian when you booked out every Fri
Come home and just have this damn sian feeling again
When the parents dont even talk to you or what
Not even a care of concern on how's things in camp or what
And yes
Matters in camp actually do affect me
Even throughout the week, and on off and leave days
Its a 24/7 call-of-duty kinda thing
When the men call you early in the morning
Like 6-7am to tell you that they are sick or what
What happen the details
Which hospital what operation
Informed all the relevant personnel already
So on and so forth
And people still can say Sergeants like us got nothing to do
And they stand in awe of all the Officers
Not knowing that not everyone who goes to OCS
Or Command School for that matters
Is someone who is of deserving calibre
Never seen Officers who are lousy?
Only seen them in their Number #1 at the commissioning parade?
Check-ed
I can only say my NS life is a positive experience
Shows me 101 different types of people
Shows me office politics over and over again
And no I dont want to be involve in all those bullshit
And my NS teaches me to be stronger
To be more committed and discipline
To carry on training
To love running
To commit myself to a healthy lifestyle
To be more independent as well
For a guy who weighs nearly 10kg more before enlistment
To my current weight which I maintain
Due to my own regime and trainings
I think it's an accomplishment
To cut down 4mins of running time to get IPPT gold
Hell I think I can walk through fire and back again
How many NSF are marksmen, IPPT gold, and top % grads?
Even if its not just the physical aspects
How many ppl can boast your Platoon
Remember, Platoon, can have no zero-fighter and all IPPT passes?
Inculcating a disciplined mentality and training a capable bunch of men
Who came from different background
Different families, different education level and what not
It's not easy you know?
Taking time out to prepare for a scholarship interview in university
During NS time
Hell that's hard
Scoring the scholarship?
I done that too
Oh wait, there's no congratulations from the family
Nobody asked how did the interview went
Nobody knew I walked through the bloody 12pm sun
Got soaked from the top of my business shirt
To my underwear
And yet managed to present something presentable to the panel
All I got was.......
"Why never take the clothes out when you come home?"
"Why never clean the house?"
"Why never sweep/mop the floor?"
Yup, they never ask anything about the scholarship
They dont know that subsidised tuition fee after tuition grant is fully covered
They dont know there is a $3.6k living allowance per year
And last but not least, they dont know how much time I spend to prepare for it
Of course, rushing home from NTU to get the Mio TV guy to fix my cable
That was included as well
They say NSF's weekends are damn precious
Who wanna disagree?
Who spends their free time tutoring their cousin?
Who apparently thinks that the tutor is not good
And doesnt show any interest, and yes, I have to see other ppl faces for that
Time is precious
Thus countless hours spend travelling on public transport
Is very time-consuming
All I want to have
Is just a mode of transport
A motorbike to travel
And the reply I got
"I dono how to ride a bike?!"
Oh wait, last I forget, I got 4 different license on my license card
Add to 2 more military license?
I have 6
I think only fighter planes I cant fly it
But hey, who knows I wont ace the flying exam?
Japan radiation disaster
No concern about my plans
Only concerns on whether will get back the money or not
Oh wait, the money is my own money as well
And hey, no one in the family asked how was the India trip
Did they?
Yup, India was fantastic for me
And all I could relate to was the photos that I liked
And posting them here for me to refresh my memories
Amazing totally
Travelling plans aside
Interest-wise
Buying the DSLR
Took plenty of convincing
And hey, once again, never use any single cent of other ppl
No, no one wants to see the photos
Buying a laptop for my uni?
Tell me go fix the old one from poly?
Which I believe is the last survivor among the 4 of us who bought the same model
And I confidently say that mine runs the fastest
Seriously?
Using back the old one for uni?
Hey, this year I can place 6 candles on its birthday cake you know?
Having interest is tough hur?
Telling them I wanna learn Muay Thai
Ha, being brushed off
Location is far
Will get injuries
No time
Etc etc
Ok, so be it
I will just go ahead
From primary school till now
And onwards to university
I have not given anyone anything to worry about
More likely than not, only my ferocious temper
Other than that
Does anyone have to worry about me not getting a place in
a secondary school, a junior college (been there done that)
Polytechnic?
Chose the route and managed to advance to uni
Oh, with the 2nd best results in the whole course
Scholarship for further studies?
Secured
Job interviews after ORD?
Done that
Ready to start work right after the week of my ORD
Seeing ppl in camp who cant even have their meals without
worrying about whether can they have a place to study next time
Or worrying about huge amount of school fees in SIM or private institutes
Hey, thats life
And you cant run away from that
And yes I dont have that problem
I'm glad for that
Because I can only say
I achieved with my own pair of hands
That worked doubly hard
With a body that refuses to succumb to illness and diseases
And a mental frame so strong that little things can break
I think I deserve a pat on my own shoulders
For that, I'm gonna do that to myself
And yes, I'm still gonna be a little boy and ask for the motorbike
I will make my own travel plans to Cambodia
I will go all these so-called 3rd World places
Just to fulfill my personal ambitions of visiting all the must-see attractions
I'm gonna do all that before I die
I'm still gonna carry on my Muay Thai lessons
After being kicked in the chest for the first lesson
Yes I will still go ahead
And I still go ahead to purchase my new laptop
After selling off my old one for $200
Yup, I will be more independent
I will learn why some friends my age are buying houses already
And I can see where they're coming from
And yes, I will be more disciplined and committed
To my own causes and interest
So that, I know, the blue-print for the next 5 years is still intact
I'm still gonna keep to it
Because if before NS the plans were like this
Soon-to-finish NS, the plans are playing out the way they are
Hell, if it is not broken, why fix it?
Oh it may sound like a monthly rant
Like your monthly periods
Or some sort of boasting forum
But hey, what do you know?
《原来。心酸。比。心痛。难受。。。》
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